The whore is all I see.
written @ 10:49 a.m. on November 17, 2003

Okay. This is how it is. Tai, you should call me. I'd come pick you up, and we could hang out or something. But, I never "treated" Nena any certain way. I wish people would look at both sides before assuming I meant something I didn't. Don't trust what you hear, because most likely it is distorted and ugly. If she wants to think I am a bitch, then go for it. This might be a little bitchy, but I am not spending any time or energy in trying to make people like me. That was highschool, and that is OVER. I am what I am. Like it or don't. I am opinionated, but mostly I don't care. My life has been so drama free and peaceful since I stopped hanging out with people. It seems that it wasn't really right for me in the first place. I want different things, like different things, and prefer to do different things. I've never fit in, so why should this be any different. Okay. So Nena is pissed? This is news to me. Besides when she blatently called me a bitch to Neona and Kaity. Okay. So I can be a bitch. Everyone can...really. I don't understand what I did... (you don't know the whole story) and it seems that she has replaced me rather well... I want so much to tell it like it is, but I can't. False faces. False words. False actions. It is too much for me.

Jenny. I'm sorry you can't come. I was really looking forward to seeing you. I can't come down there. I have too many bills, and not enough money. It is very sad, but believe me. I understand.

I'm getting married in a few months. My craving for a baby is getting worse everyday. I want a little boy. Or a girl. I just want a baby. We would be such good parents, and I really think he would enjoy it...

I wish he would understand how much I want this. I want it as much as he wants that boat.

I have a doctor's appointment tonight.

I'll update soon.

There is alot of lonliness that comes with responsibility.



obsticles - enlightenment

*Nona* *Kaity Bug* *La Nynia* *Brently* *Tai*

"As fire lights the wood it consumes, so the soul illuminates the body with consciousness."
- Srimad Bhagavatam