Put a bullet in my head.
written @ 5:26 p.m. on November 01, 2003

I went out with my mom today. We started buying stuff for the wedding (i/e: silk flowers for my flower bouquet, and some for my bridesmaids, whoever those turn out to be... Dani, Nena and Jenny.)

All of the flowers and netting stuff is so pretty. Antique yellow roses with sparkly green stuff. It's so pretty. Nena is going to finish her room this week, and then she will start sewing the dresses. Jenny, she said she needs you to measure yourself.

I'm getting married!!! YAY!!! I'm so excited. We've decided to get married at Aldersheim lodge out the road. It's very pretty, and the wedding will be small becasue we can only have 50 people. I have to make a list soon. *sigh*

I got a job. Great. Now what. I need a night time one. I am going to start looking for a night time job, so that I can pay off my bank, and move. *yay*

I have to go clean our bedroom now, and turn up the music REALLY loud. I believe it is time for some Nirvana. Or maybe some Pink Floyd. If you haven't read my diary lately, you should check older entries.

And Kaitlin, nothing that I say is directly aimed at you. I'm just not a little kid anymore. It's okay for you to want to go out and trick-or-treat. It's just not for me. I was only expressing how out of place I was last night, and how it made me remember why I love my life like I do, sometimes. And I am not saying that you aren't "grown-up." But I do feel that there is alot that you haven't experienced in life yet, and time will show it to you. It isn't bad, and it isn't your fault. Don't take it like that. And Neona may not talk shit to you, but I do hear things from people. And I really don't care that much, because she will feel how she feels...not matter what I think. I could care less. I cannot be around her very much though, and I don't mean that in a pissed off bitchy sort of way. We just see things very differently, and everytime I am around her I have to stop myself from saying how I really feel. And Brent. I would love to be friends with him, but he hasn't made any effort to be friends with me again, and I have made every effort in the world to be his.



obsticles - enlightenment

*Nona* *Kaity Bug* *La Nynia* *Brently* *Tai*

"As fire lights the wood it consumes, so the soul illuminates the body with consciousness."
- Srimad Bhagavatam