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I like to watch you sleep at night... To feel you breathe by my side. written @ 12:47 a.m. on October 25, 2003 My life is starting to fall into place a little. This job I got is going to be so cool. I never thought that I would work for the School District again, never mind making as much money as I will be (or having benefits, life insurance, and retirement.) Scott and I are planning on moving out in November, so we won't have to pay another month of rent here. (Not that we wouldn't if we had to stay, but we REALLY are going to have a little bit of a difficult time getting together the money for first and last months rent.) Scott is talking to his brother's wife tomorrow (she runs a trailer park and apartments here.) and he will see if she can find us something. It'll be so great. I will seriously be happy. I wanna have our own place by Christmas. *sigh* Thanksgiving would be nice too. My fingernails are bright red. It's pretty outlandish for me. I usually paint them brown or black. Sometimes pink. Red is just so bright. Oh-well. Have you ever noticed what a beautiful color brown is? Really. My favorite color combinations all have brown in them. Brown and pink (i love!) and brown and blue... Maybe I'm just some color-blind-artist-girl. I'm drawing a Muchas inspired picture right now. Mucha was this amazing artist from the early 20th century. He did amazing drawings and lithography. Someday I wish to be so talented. The girl in the picture looks like a woman that I'd drw anyway. Most of the women in my paintings look like crack addicts of heroin junkies. I just love the way their bodies are so jutting and angular. Slender, willowy, and boney. I also like the way that their eyes are sunken in, with large dark circles under them. If I had my choice, I would be a 100 lb. Herion addict looking girl. Not exactly an addict. Just looking like one. I find them so pretty. If I was to ever date a women, she's have to look like that. Well, I'd prefer it...but I'm flexible, literally. ;-) I have a new idea for a painting. This makes me excited. Maybe when I'm done, I'll take a digital picture of it and use it for my diaryland page. Hmmm. I want to body paint. It looks so fun. I aksed Scott today if it was okay if I draw him in the morning when I wake up, and he's still sleeping. He seemed to be okay with that. Ross always hated it when I drew him. Insecurity, I guess. Men with such beautiful noses shouldn't be insecure. I love male noses. (good noses, that is.) I like big beautiful noses. Stong lines, and good nostrils with a nice cleft into the upper lip (not a cleft lip, but a cleft into the lip) and nice full pink (or brown...hee hee!) lips, and nice set in eyes. God. My boyfriend is beautiful. And that's just his face.
"As fire lights the wood it consumes, so the soul illuminates the body with consciousness."
- Srimad Bhagavatam
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