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Don't read this.
written @ 10:21 a.m. on October 15, 2003

I feel pretty depressed right now. Scott and I are going to have to start paying an extra hundred bucks a month for rent as soon as I get a job. Fuck. That means that we will be paying $400 a month for ONE bedroom. Not an apartment, just ONE bedroom. Not even a large one at that. When we moved in here we were sleeping on a twin bed (both of us, and I'm not exactly tiny) in the corner of the living room. The bedroom we were going to move into (used to be Hannah's, Just so ya know Jenny) was so jam packed full of SHIT that we couldn't walk in the door. I cleaned that bedroom (free of charge, I might add) until all of the shit was out of it, and you could see the floor and get to the closet again. We didn't even have anywhere to put our clothes for at least 2 months. They were in plastic bags. When it comes to my personal area, I prefer if things are very organized and pretty neat (Kaity understands) and it killed me that for 2 months I couldn't even find socks, or any of Scott's boxers. As Neona can voutch for me, the bathroom near our room was GROSS. There was cat shit everywhere, and it was VERY VERY dirty. I cleaned that bathroom from top to bottom, and most of the time you could safely eat off of the floor if you so chose to do so. Never during this time period did I ask for a discount off of rent, or pay for cleaning the entire bedroom and bathroom. Usually when you move into a place, it's already sparkling clean for you. So, for $300 a month, this is what we were dealing with. Not to mention that Scott also has a clean issue, and can't function in a messy environment. Uuugh. Our original offer was to pay like $250 a month for rent of one bedroom, because with all of our other bills... we couldn't afford anything else. But Scott got a raise, and so I told Nena that we would pay $300. So now, out of the blue our rent goes up. Not $25, or $50... but a hundred bucks. I'm going to have to wear an old sheet for my wedding dress! :-) Like I told Kaitlin, I cannot even afford to go and but cheese, never the less pay $4000 on a downpayment for a $14000 car! I will never own a $14000 car, like Nena's going to. I will proabaly be driving my pontiac until the day I die. Sorry about this entry. Don't mean to piss anyone off. I am just really pissed off.

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