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Who am I??? written @ 11:58 a.m. on August 31, 2003 I feel cheated. This is not all there is, my dear friends. There is so much more. Other cities with other people. Different accents with different ways of life. Different men. There are so many places that I would like to go to. So many things that I would love to see. So many things I want to go through. We are stuck. I dig my way out furiously, but not successfully. Damn. I wish that I could rewind to 3 years ago... ignore Ross's anticts, and focus on myself. Make something of myself. I don't know who I am right now, and that scares me. The scarier thing is that I know myself better now than I ever have. I wish I was a beautiful person. I want radiance and attraction. I want to be fun and exciting. I want color and life. I want men and toys. I want everyday to be one that I jump out of bed wondering what sort of adventure lies in store for me that day. I want my girls. Damn... I could'nt live without you. I am so serious. You guys keep me sane. I need to know who I am.
"As fire lights the wood it consumes, so the soul illuminates the body with consciousness."
- Srimad Bhagavatam
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